Between hormones, imbalanced chemicals and just plain sin...I feel like an out of control roller coaster ride. One second I am happy, the next I am sad, then I am cranky...and the fear...oh the fear. How I have come to know thee well. I feel unloved. I feel unworthy. of anything. I want someone to notice me. to tell me that I am good at something. I want to feel calm and content. I want to sleep peacefully. God never said that this life was going to be easy. When we cross over into eternity, it is then and only then that we will know a life without pain and fear. For now...I try to 'control' it. Ah...the illusion of control. Some have it more than others. I have tricked myself into thinking that I am in control of things...HA! Have I got much to learn.
Sorry so down...I have been for the past couple days now. Needed some alone time...and a good laugh! LOL...oh how I laughed today sooo hard. I have heard of pop and milk coming out someone's nose, but apple juice? seriously funny stuff. We would like to market it as the 'Apple Juice Sinus Cleanse'...LOL...we should have our own infomercial. I know just who I would want to film it.
Pray for me. Good night.
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